So it turns out that I just can’t keep away!
I’m glad that I left this blog open, not only because according to my stats people are still reading it, but also so I can return once in a blue moon to post stuff. Since July, I have not been doing anything remotely druid-ish, haven’t been reading druid blogs or books and have tried to remove all trace of ‘spirituality’ from my mind and become a totally logical, Spock-like uber-atheist. Guess what? It didn’t work!
Whether it’s the turning of the leaves and the sight of garden birds and squirrels preparing for winter, or the soon-to-be free time I will have from finishing my Library Management course, but druidry has been calling to me again. No matter how much I try to ignore it, there is a small (often irritating) feeling that druidry is where I belong. And you know what, I think it is. Not in the crystals, fairies and woo-woo tent but in the love of nature, of wild open spaces and ancient landscapes, of stars and stones and trees and animals, of half-forgotten mythology and folklore, of philosophy and friendly discussion, of learning and growing.
This down-to-earth, practical, ‘lived’ druidry appeals to me so much more than the dry online debate about beliefs and deities and who is a ‘real’ druid/pagan/atheist etc, and it seems to point towards a life worth living. But how do I get there?
I think one of my problems earlier on was that I wanted to ‘be a druid’ but not necessarily to do the hard work of ‘practicing druidry’. I guess that’s why it’s called ‘practice’ because part of it involves rushing ahead and making mistakes and (hopefully) learning from them.
So my current plan is, once I have handed in my final ILM assignments and graduated with a shiny PGDip after my name (in December), I will re-visit the OBOD Bardic Gwersi. After looking at various druid groups, I still feel that OBOD’s openness to people of all faiths and none, and view of druidry as a philosophy more than a religion, still fits best with my approach. And hey, I have the Gwersi I paid for sitting in a box in my study, so I may as well dig them out, blow the dust off them and have another look!
But as well as this, I want to ‘do’ druidry, not just read and/or write about it. So for now that probably means less than regular blogging, but lots of walking, camping and nature-spotting, feeding garden wildlife and learning about ecology and healing herbs and growing things in preparation for getting my own house and garden to invest my time in.
I have no great hope that this
second third fourth whatever (!) foray into druidry will bear fruit, but perhaps it will plant a seed into somewhat more well-fertilised soil. Who knows? I think I’ll start with a small Samhain ritual at the weekend and see where I am drawn to from there.
I hope to have some of you along for the journey again!